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Happy Halloween!!
Halloween is my favorite holiday. I get to dress up like I did when I was 5 and run around being me. "Me" being a little person in big people clothes - and that's me every day. I find it hard to believe I am as old as I am. When I was 19, I figured by now I'd be married and have one kid already. But now, I feel like I'm barely older than I was then. Granted I am more emotionally secure and have made use of a little more grey matter than I did then, but I still feel like I'm 19..most days I'm 7. hee hee! I think it shows too, people tell me I can't be older than 21. I have to laugh!! Anyway, Halloween is my favorite holiday. no one is themselves. every one is dressed up pretending to be someone else. Which is not any different from any other day, but with Halloween, it's more comical.
Halloween is also my favorite because there is no stress of receiving things, gifts and what not. You give away candy. I like giving. I haven't done a lot of giving lately, I've been broke, but I would much rather give than receive. So today I went as my cat Vivi. The dean wore a great mask with lot of hair and another guy went as death. I would be out trick or treating but its freezing here, with a windchill of 25 degrees Farenheit and visibility to a quarter mile. I also want to wish my daddy a happy happy birthday! I love you daddy!

The Student I Am
12:46 am on a crispy Thursday morning. 34 degrees to be exact.
I'm working homework due in 7 hours and drinking hot green tea. Apparently, not hot enough as I am chewing some *hot* beef jerky, too. I have a costume picked out for tomorrow and am wondering if Dr. R will send me home for looking ridiculous or if he will appreciate my efforts. I bet anything he laughs and says, "aren't you too old for that?" He's a good man. I'm going as my cat Vivi - we'll see how well I can pull that off. Happy Halloween, all. Its suppose to snow here, hope everyone else is warmer!

Tennis update:My tosses are higher, so my serves have been better. Today's match was better than my last doubles match. It helps that Kelly has strategy she can share. Found out that we also have a match tomorrow - they couldn't tell us earlier, go figure.
Other goodness:Anywho, thursday is halloween. I want to go dressed up, but I don't know how or where I'm going to get a costume. I guess I'll spend a couple hours tomorrow researching that little bit before my next match.
Bad Dreams: Had a dream about Dr. R that seemed a little to realistic for me. We were talking about issues with his lecturing. I know he can be good, I think this semester was full of unpleasantness for him, so that could have been part of it.
More goodness: Anyway, Huny says I should be a blue, black and gold cat. I'm gonna see what I can do, on a budget ofcourse!! I wonder if Liz can go shopping with me:-) Had sushi again today, it's great the little grocery store down the street has sushi now. YUM!
Pictures!! I posted some new pictures on my Tech site

i sat and talked to my friend shay today. she's going through a tough time - although self inflicted (this is my opinion). Its good though, it means it will be easier for her to get out of. i let her know she's doing the right thing by seeking couseling. i gave her some ideas to help her out of her situation. it is a matter of her chosing the right path to get where one wants to be. hopefully she can see that and move forward. now i need to take my own advice and get back to studying. that's the only way to get to graduation. wow i said it, graduation. it seems soo far away. :-) But so did 19. *sigh* good times, good times.

Ahh the weather
I would like to quote one of my favorite writers: the homeless guy.

"I doesn't rain, but instead mists heavily. This morning, fog blanketed the landscape, enclosing the known world into just a few yards. To know something exists without seeing it really takes faith."

He was describing Nashville. Little did he know he was also describing Lubbock.

Didn't make it to church today. I decided it was too cold to get up and make my way down there. I already have to leave the house today for tennis practice, and once is enough. We gained an hour today, and I don't know where mine went. Actually, I used it to clean up my apartment - which I hadn't done in quite a while. It's clean now, and doesn't smell like old cereal bowls.

My week was eventful. We got our exams back from the week before. I made a 65 on my Thermo exam. Dr. L had said he would grade on setup, and not for answers. Well he took of heavily for me not having answers, even though my setup was correct. Which I thought sucked some serious yucky juice. But talking to him gave me a chance to get to know him better. He's an awesome guy. Grades hard, but he is a very awesome guy. He says he'll really retire soon. I hope not. I asked if he would teach Thermo II, he said no. He likes Thermo I. That makes me afraid of Thermo II.

Good news is that I get to keep my Chemistry credit so I can take Materials next semester!! Woo hooo! I'm excited. I also got my foot in doing membership goodies with ASME. I wonder if that means I'll get the position. Not that I want to push Shay out, but she's having a hard time with school as it is. I like having an office at school. I spend a lot of time there. Its fun for me. I get a place to study that's not too close to my bed.

LiznDan went on their anniv. trip this weekend!! They get all kinds of pamering goodness. I hope they have a good time. It had to have been better than being here - all wet and cold. It is also suppose to snow this comming week. Yuck.

I learned that my friend Christina is moving to New Mexico with her chicklette. *sigh*. I do hope I get to see her again soon. Chris, you're the best.. i love you, maaan.

I volunteered at the Legacy Play Village on Friday. I got to use a circular saw and all kinds of destructive goodness. I helped to put in wire meshing for the castle windows and put in handicap rails in a few places. It was definitely a good feeling. I put in over 10 hours!! I like volunteering. I need to remember to put that and RIF on my resume.

Yesterday was pretty depressing. I got homesick again. Then Huny told me there is an apartment issue with the pet deposit which I know that I paid. I hope he can take care of it. This week should be good. I think I'm back on my roll.

Oh and speaking of rolls. We have sushi here!! [www.acesushi.com] They have a place here, right across the street from me. Fresh sushi and not so bad prices!! Awesome!!

Ok, I go back to work now.

so like i was walking down the street and all of the sudden i was in hawaii. then i thought, no, no i'm not.. its raining, there's no drainage, and that truck that drove by just splashed a 10 foot wall of water on me.

I got back from coffee, which was actually an Italian Creamosa for me. They made up the name Cremosa. Borders' calls it a French Soda - which makes more sense to me, actually. The French put milk in everything! Creamosa (haa haa haa). I had a bagel, too. I haven't had one since I started my crusade to lose weight. It was good, but I don't miss it. :-) The carbs aren't worth it for me. I read most of chapter 5 in thermo so I got what I needed done. I'm gonna start on the homework now. After coffee we went to Josie's. Pretty darn good breakfast tacos!!! Ayn needs to eat here with me. LiznDan are such a cute couple! She has a 'speech impedement' much like my hieu-isms (misworded wordages). Its awesome that I'm not alone in my silliness!!
My place is pretty empty without the warm fuzzies of my animals and my huny. Speaking of warm, I went to Wally World to get a heater for Sushi, Blue and gang and they were out. How convenient. So another night of warm energy-wasting goodness.
'Sisco called, he's back home now. His mom passed. I offered to go over and see him, he said he'd rather I just stay put. So I did. I'm put. Must bring card to school for peeps to sign.
Liz talked about corn on the cob today, and so I craved. I warmed up some frozen nibblets. Yes, they're called Nibblets. Nibblets isn't a hieu-ism although it sounds like one. So I had nibblets and butter. Yum!! I was too full after the burrito so that wasn't a good idea. But it tasted awesome!

I'm gonna go find my classes now. I need to be ready to register next week. Smile, everyone. You never know who's watching you.

Hello Sunday. I slept most of the day. I believe its mostly from homesick-depression. Thankfully the semester is half over. Just about two more months of this and then I'm one down 3 to go. Not too bad. I hate being alone. I met a nice couple yesterday. The lady was nice enough to offer to call me when fun things happen in the plains. I met them at the hotair ballon mini-festival which was a lot of fun for me. Well, it was fun. And it was depressing. Depressing because I was enjoying something for the first time - alone. I really hate being alone. I would have been fine if I had a kitty with me, or a dog, a close friend, someone. I was even alone at church today. I don't think 'sisco made it back yet. The priest talked about giving the man upstairs what is his and giving everyone else what is theirs. I should concentrate on doing that a little more. Leave my pitty party for the 3 minutes I'm awake before dozing off. I wonder how all my buddies are? Everyone is so busy these days they don't have time to write. And frankly, neither do I.

I talked to mommy and daddy today. They seemed happy. Proud, in fact. I told her not to be so happy until the semester was over. Not to count her chickens before the eggs hatched. I just hope that I can make it through without falling out. I hope I can push through the rest of today without falling back in bed. I should be okay. I leave in a few minutes for tennis practice. Then I need to go to wally world and by a heater for Sushi, Blue, and gang. Then I get to go coffee shop studying with my neighbor. Then I come home and write some more english. Then the week starts all over again.

I'm glad Sergio wrote me last week. He sent me some pics of Austin. I miss Austin. I should probably write all my friends on the list and tell them whats up. I dunno though, it would depress me. Okay here I go. I need to fix Exploder somehow. It keeps crashing on me.

Friday again. This week was not entirely uneventful. 'Sisco ran home late Sunday to be with his mom. Monday sucked as most Monday's do. Tuesday we had a Thermo exam that shredded what was left of our grey matter. I lost my doubles match that night. I have a feeling my partner was pissed I showed up on time instead of early. I could see she lacked the effort to win the first match. I played hard and eventually so did she and we got three games out of the opponents. Then on Wednesday, Mr Ukraine English Instructor said "Who was the bitch who said I didn't assign homework?" Needless to say we found that unnacceptable.Thursday, Dr R had a grand ole time with our backsides with the weekly quiz. I also went to the dinner with the reps from industry who get to talk to the dean about our concerns. Needless to say *who* was my big concern. I also find out last night that some people still think i'm pretty! :-) Its always a good feeling to know that even though I'm "almost old" that I'm still a hottie. I think its gonna get to my head :-O!! I want to go to Old Navy and get some new jammies, they're the most comfy clothes ever! And I'm soo tired of dressing up to go anywhere. I didn't get to play tennis last night since it rained. Today is friday and I slept in. I miss my honey and I didn't want to get up at all. It'll just be another day without him. I should start on homework and focus on that. I think I will here soon enough. Darn, I'm out of cereal. I don't want to buy more. I dont want to do anyting thats not school or tennis. I have little drive for anything else right now. I think if I had this feeling before when I started school, I would have done better. I'm glad I realized that I didn't early, got out and enjoyed my early 20's instead of being frustrated. Now I'm all ready for the school thing, *and* I'm acutally enjoying it.! :-) ... everybody hug somebody!

It has been a long week. Thankfully, the weekend seemed just as long - three exams this comming week!!
We had the Irish priest today. He told the story about the man who was given the opportunity to visit hell. When we got there he saw a great banquet table full of food, but everyone was angry because they could only eat the food with a 4 foot long fork and it was near impossible. The man also visited heaven, and saw another banquet table with the same food and the same rules. But the people in heaven were eating happily. They were feeding one another across the table with these 4 foot long forks. I think the story was to remind us/me not to be selfish. Someone in a seemingly unhappy situation can be happy - it's in how they choose to live through it. It's a good thing to remember. 'Sisco reminded me of that recently, too.

I started reading my old bible again last night. Reading it now as an older person, I think the people who wrote it made God out to be a mean old man. Shoo!! I guess reality is: the world is a mean ole place.

Enough preachy stuff today. Back to the books. Lovely, its not quite 10 am yet and its still 44 freaking freezing degrees!! Thankgoodness it didn't rain and my heater works!!

Rats!! Its 1:02 in the am and I still have to finish two more homework sets. No matter what I do, I never have enough time to finish everything.. and well understand what it is I'm doing. I can't bring myself to do a half assed job. Although, if I did, I'd get more sleep. Hmm. Something to ponder on next time I get some time to ponder...which will be in what.. a couple of years?

StickCow made my day today with the "pube on the desk discovery" post. LOL! Thanks, chickie!

My little Phoo sent me the cutest card with a little kitty hanging on a string. *sigh*, my first piece of mail that wasn't a bill! Thank you, hun!

Now I must fix MatLab yuckiness.....

I'm so greatful to my Huny and also to one of my best friends, GrendelsDJ. If it weren't for them reminding me there are shittier people to deal with, I would be much more depressed. Thankfully, I am reminded of the Bob's, the Stu's, the hotChocolates, and the customers. Aaah, the customers. I thank you and my sanity thanks you, both.
//huggles//

I believe I'm a fair person. I try to be one anyway. I've learned that its not always just what a person knows, or who someone knows, but its also how the person is. I've worked at a company where the owner was only 3 years older than me and my boss did not have a degree. That was one of the better places I have worked. I was treated kindly, paid well, and was respected throughout. Unfortunately, I left that company to join another company. This one was owned and run by PhD’s who earned their degrees in the sciences. Sadly enough, they were unable to run the company successfully. They brought in money and yes we paid the rent, but my collegues and I were not treated with respect, I were paid poorly in contrast, and I surely was not treated kindly. At one point, one of them prescribed antidepressants to me. I left that company quickly and joined another, a mishmash of the two cultures - the higher educated and the others like myself who earned their knowledge through experience. What I saw was that those with the degrees that had management positions were unable to care for or manage those underneath them. I also saw those who worked with me unable to manage themselves but at the same time allowed themselves to be trampled by management so that they survived unscathed until this day. Others with degrees and experience, although not in management were able to excel other areas and gain positions with responsibilities - mostly based on how they interacted with others.
My point is that, an education or position, knowledge or accomplishment alone doesn't make a person. It's how that person is inside that adds to the character. I am a fair person. I give everyone their chance. Everyone I meet or interact with is equal in my eyes until they prove otherwise. The same goes with my professors. People tell me all the time that so-and-so is horrible, a bad teacher, and the list goes on. But I have to take it with a grain of salt. I have respect for my professors until they pull what one of mine did today. When someone decides to be a teacher, they become a teacher. If teaching is only only 20% of what you do, when its time for you to teach, teaching is then 100% of what you do. When the lecture time is over, you go back and finish the 80% of your life. Because that is what you do. Today, I decided to take the time to make use of my professor's teaching and have him explain a concept to me. Over and over we discussed working a problem, when what I wanted was the "why and the how" not the "this is what you do with this problem". I diverted my anger and rage, anything to keep from decking the man, to tears. What else can you do when you stay up all night trying desperately to understand a concept? So he becomes enraged and inappropriate words fly out of his mouth. He finished his explanation, yet again - not what I wanted, and offered us the transparencies. We accepted. He chucked them over. Any man worthy of the undershirt under his polos would not chuck anyone anything. A man hands papers and anything else over to the receiving party. Even I know that. This man has written many books, has taught for many years, does awesome research, and is obviously successful. Unfortunately his personality is seriously lacking. He was doing fine until the chucking. One does not chuck. Ever. Its not cool.
Much like a proper lady pulling on her bloomers in the middle of a ballroom. Its just not cool.
In closing, I would like to say looks aren't everything, neither are accomplishments, especially if deep down inside... there's an ASS. All the respect the man ever earned from me has gone down the drain. I can no longer doubt my classmates when they say their hateful things about him. What I think and how I feel doesn't matter to him. I know that. But it only takes ONE to make a difference.

Why is it that certain headaches won't go away?? Specifically, the kinds you get on Mondays??
nap.. Ibuprophen.. hot tea.. healthy salad.. candy corn.. nothing will make it go away. And its only the beginning of the week! I have so many more days and nights to go before I can rest again!! Thankfully I did well on last week's mechanics quiz. I need to make sure I do that well and better on this week's.. And every week there after, but isn't that what I said two weeks ago? haa haa.
I noticed today at 6pm, after I had been home for 3 hours, how my day can go from being right on time, ahead of schedual even to being way, way behind, and have no chance of catching up. Well, its 11pm now, and I'm even farther behind with an 8 am class in the morning. **grinning** So enough logging for now! Besides Explorer has performed an illegal operation and will be shut down.

Quote for the week:

"I can't do it" never yet accomplished anything: "I will try" has accomplished wonders.
- -- George P. Burnham

The sky was an awesome color of peach and blueberry this morning, much like a mixed cobbler from the Salt Lick, yummy! It made for a comforting drive to church this morning. I actually made it this week, yeah me! Today it was something about vineyards and pulling up roots if it doesn't grow the way you want it to grow - I'm not sure what it meant. I always thought if something doesn't go the way you want, you just go with it; there's really not much you can do about it once its already happened. :-) That's what I'm doing with Mechanics right now. I hope it works. crossing fingers

Mechanics just makes more sense when you have Lou Rawls singing in the background....
"You'll never find... as long as you live... someone who loves you, tender like I do.
You'll never find... no matter where you search... someone who cares about you, the way I do.
Oh I'm not bragging on myself baby, but I'm the one who's loving you, and there's no one else...
Noooooo ooo ooo one else.
You'll never find... it'll take the end of all time, someone tounderstand you, like i do.
You'll never find... the rhythm the rhyme... all the magic we share, just us two.
Oh I'm not trying to make you stay baby, but I know somehow someday someway
You're gonna miss my lovin... You're gonna miss my lovin...
You're gonna miss you're gonna miss you're gonna miss my lovin..."

And the centroid of a volume can be found with the formulas on page 253 :-)!!

Thursday night was my first time to be descriminated against based on my ethinicity. My cousin and I went to Jazz, that cajun restaurant that they have even here in the middle of nowhere. The band Jazz Alley played and they were awesome. They opened with Herbie Hancocks' Cantaloop Island - an awesome awesome song. The drummer crooned to Louie's What a Wonderful World, and that made my night. The food was pretty good. I had gumbo and bignettes, when we finally got it. Living in the wonderful world of Austin, I've been ignored by waitstaff before, but its always been because they were lazy, tired, or too busy. Thursday, we were ignored because we are Asian. How crappy is that? Pretty crappy. And how do I know it was because we were Asian?? When we walked in, everbody went silent and stared at us. When the lady asked to take our order, she talked in very slow foreign-sympatheic voice. She didn't check on us for 20 minutes from the time we walked in. There were 3 people waiting tables and 4 tables of customers. She checked on the old men directy infront of us 9 times before she came to ask us if we needed anything, and I needed a water like 15 minutes ago. She didn't even offer to refill my coffee or our bread, or bring us straws when we asked her 3 times. At the end of the night we were kind enough to leave a tip for the band, and not for her. :-)